Not Your High School Girlfriend

Dispatches from the corner of Hollywood and Motherhood


By Mia Sara



The Long Shot


I understand the horse
            who spooks
when the blue tarp
           catches the air,
and snaps,
           like the flag at the starting
gate. We hang on
           to what we learn in the saddle,
or get thrown. Win or lose,
           the track turns
a full circle. It’s only yesterday
           in Brooklyn,
before you left, the tattoo fresh
            on the inside
of your equine lip.
            Considering the odds
you ran a good race,
            high strung and blinkered,
feet never touching
            the ground. The ground
never rising to meet
            your pace. How fast
can you go
            on the wrong footing?
I never watch
            the Oscars, still knuckling over
the high hurdles.
            Silly filly. I thought the prize was real
but not the price.
            I thought I was stone motherless,
and lame. But here we are
            in the arena,
this new horse, Apollo, and me.
            It’s the long shot
who can write their own ticket.
            So, we’ll take it.


Mia Sara used to be an actress, but recovered her senses and now she writes. Her work has been published in Superstition Review, Helix, poemmemoirstory, The Summerset Review, PANK, the Write Room, among many others. Her chapbook, Mid-Life With Gorilla was published by Dusie Press, and she had a long running column “Wrought and Found” for PANK Magazine. She lives between New York City and Los Angeles with her husband, Brian Henson, and her children. Read more from Mia at her website.